Date: 29th May 2018
Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. Mark 8.34
Every time I get up to speak to a group, no matter the size I feel inadequate and nervous.
It’s not about making a twit of myself or doing something wrong. It’s about knowing how flawed and unworthy I am to represent God. I feel completely undone.
It’s not about knowing that I have talent to speak and encourage. It’s not about all the years of experience and study I’ve done. It’s about standing before people – whether it’s a small home group or a crowd of 800 – and knowing that I fall so short.
To pick up my cross is to look into my soul and recognise my failure and weakness, and yet still be willing to use the talent God has given me. It would be so easy to renege on my promise to obey and share what I know of God. To lose my life is to allow that death of self every time, and then to accept the resurrection life that comes from hiding my life in Christ.
May you be encouraged to pick up your cross — and die to self. May you know the life lived in Christ is one submerged in Grace and Love, and Life in all its fullness.
Now that’s something to celebrate!
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